Well, I'd be damned.

I would have never imagined that I would once again express myself in long form. Social media sites have truly destroyed the art of long form self-expression aka blogging.

To be honest, I am quite unsure still on how I'm supposed to start these things. If I remember correctly, the last time I had to type ANYTHING in length was during my final year in college for my Bachelor thesis. That was 5 years ago.

Nevertheless, here I am.
Late last year, I began to realize that spending a very very considerable amount of time on social media, Instagram in particular, was truly destroying my soul. Not to be dramatic but after spending almost 2 decades online, I think the appeal has gotten stale. The same content seems to be regurgitated across the same short form social media platforms - and that's not to say that I didn't enjoy it. Oh, do I enjoy it. The memes, especially. I think at some point I based off my entire personality on them in my early 20's. God. Other than that, certain life events have truly traumatized the socmed experience for me, to the core.
Anyway, I truly came to the conclusion that someone with a brain like mine that works differently (thanks BPD), simply cannot cope with the perceived demands that social media has. I say perceived because, well, I know I'm the problem. I think it's taken some time to truly admit that, but I think in the back of my hard ass head I have always knew I had some form of addiction. Womp womp. (Now, I can make all sorts of argument about how it's 100% not the end users' fault. Inherently, I think these websites were built on the foundation to "connect" people but lately has it not just evolved into something more... Sinister? Thanks, capitalism.)

So yes, I took the plunge and got a slightly dumb but also smart-ish flip phone that supports the basic necessities like Whatsapp, Gmail and Maps - and fully ditched my iPhone 13 Pro Max. And get this, it has a decent camera too. In the beginning, it took some getting used to, but eventually I loved the amount of free brain time (as I would call it) away from all the noise. I guess the meds has really helped, too. Will probably also make a separate post or page on my EDC (everyday carry).

What also triggered ~the switch~ is this video. I would recommend to view it, but also to look into the works and lectures of Jaron Lanier. But also Noam Chomsky. Just for some intersectional, philosophical brain funzies.
Okay, am I rambling? I'm probably rambling. Wait. Whatever. IT'S MY SITE!!!!! Damn.